Writer
Pulling me deeper
It’s a darkness
It’s full of pain
I know what lies inside
I pull myself together, block all the dark thoughts
Close my eyes
Breathe deep with the hope the pains goes away
Sigh, everything is still the same
My wandering mind settles in thoughts of him again
How do I push them away
It just keeps getting worse
There is nothing good to him
Then why do I get pulled towards him again
Is it the attention I seek
Or the idea of him being just mine.
If it was so easy
Pain, oh honey is needy
It likes to dwell on my happy side
Slowly building its hive.
I begin to share sides
Start to believe
Happiness and pain go together
Until it begins to take more than its share.
Pain is greedy
Gets more clingy
How do I push this needy one away?
Trapped in its sad clutches how does one escape.
What is it today,
Just another day!
Doesn’t look any red to me..
No hearts or balloons
No flying angels with songs in the air
Who is sending cards and buying those pretty expensive flowers
That are to be thrown in a few days!
Anyhow for all the lovey-doveys out there..
A very Happy Valentine’s Day!
I stop for a moment, pay attention to my thoughts
What is it..
What am I thinking!
Why so restless,
What do I seek?
Is it just me..
Or is everyone faking it pretty easily?
What am I to get from attention..
Everyone likes being loved
And this chase is never ending.
It takes a road of its own
It wanders aimlessly
Flows like a stream
Hazy as a cloud
Light as a breeze
Is as empty as a canvas board
Searching for something unknown.
It takes pleasure in surprise
Smiles at anything nice
Learns and evolves
Grows into a creature of beauty
Unlike anything seen before
Imagination is its creator
Creativity comes alive.
..and she lives a life for others
She has an identity
She can make a mark
But sadly, she is quite like others
Lost in the crowd
Leaving behind no trial
Of her soul.
Empty head blank space
Just a few words to fill up the page.
Green coloured tea, pink sheets.
Cold feet, warm eyes.
I sit on the side and watch you smiling at me.
Look away,
There’s more to me than you can see.
i lie here again waiting for the words to come flowing
to help me describe what’s been going
how do i begin my glorious story
a lost soul in a herd constantly seeking for glory
why do i feel i do not belong
thoughts, actions, and intentions
unwanted and sometimes so wrong
they judge and look at me with hateful eyes
i look down and walk ahead
sometimes with a smirk
sometimes with fear and anguish on my mind
why am i unlike the others
staying aloof,
hurting people whom i like,
it’s not that i like to always be alone,
it’s just my racing unsteady mind,
unsatisfied with what’s in hand.
A walk towards you,
I close my eyes.
Let myself go,
Get lost in your world.
We belong with one another.
We fit just right.
I realize with a smile,
You light up my life.
You fill it with laughter and joy.
Childlike fantasy,
You and me, we are meant to be.
Tears of blood
Etching my soul, carving my being
Overwhelming feelings consume me
Deep-rooted in misery, dreams of the past ruin me.
An ocean of emotional overflow
Words of poetry breed the beast in me
The fight against forsakenness will soon end
Till then the path towards solace continues.
Nuraine Sadaf 