You are a human,
Not a paper on which I can write my emotions.
I do not know how you will perceive what I feel.
You might get me wrong.
And things might get messier.
So I remain silent or show you what’s on my mind?
Category: Poems
Listless
Worthless, seeking happiness in others.
An emptiness, so shallow.
With no interest absolutely in doing anything meaningful.
All I do is watch the world outside,
the cloudy skies,
an eagle flying high,
people walking by.
Questions of existence and the point of life.
With no distinguishable role to play.
Artistry of others inspires me.
A blanket of darkness clouds my mind.
Thoughts of happier people living their lives.
These moods of mine take control of my mind
They consume my better side,
I walk around wearing a mask of anger and whine.
Spreading negativity.
A wave of throbbing pain in my brain.
I breathe deep and try to understand what is it that I want..
An ear to listen, someone to appreciate and care
Understand the person I am
And who am I?
Just an ordinary girl
Swamped in emotions in need of love.
A night in my Bed
Lying wide awake under my sheets
I recall who I used to be
I look at myself now and wonder
What has led me into this mansion of hunger
I dream of being better than who I used to be
I push aside any miseries
I work through my day in honesty and discipline.
I follow the rules, a routine keeps me going.
I spend hours of my day playing with my mates
Late hours at home are spent doing something good.
The calmness within is sometimes shattered by a wave of rage
A storm rises like it will never stop.
I see myself falling and worry I can never rise again.
But just a night’s sleep in my bed
Will make everything right once again.
Sound of Rain
The sound of rain through my window pane
So loud on the grayish white frame.
Drops splatter on the muddy plain
Winds howl and embrace the rain.
The pitter-pattering drops on lakes and leaves.
Gentle rumble of clouds with a crackling blaze
Thunder, wind and rain play their lightning game.
Immersing in its overwhelming power and busy affair
A slight tug on my insides
A temptation, a drawing, a lordly call of the rain.
Here’s comes the season of rain once again.
Try Some Kindness
You walk around like a snob,
What’s that look on your face,
Humble down a bit.
You will need to earn the respect and love.
Curt replies, crass behavior
Towards people below your so called “standards”
Just makes You an extremely unpleasant person.
No you are not special,
You are not a judge of your intelligence
and you certainly are not entitled to belittle others.
What are you looking at?
What are you looking at, these streets are mine as much as yours!
Why do I need to cover myself?
And walk with my head down..
Why are you men looking at me all the time..?
Is it the clothes I wear?
Have you never seen a woman before..?
What is it that you wish to see?
Your shameless, creepy gaze pierces through me..
How I wish I could beat you right now and pull your eyes out..
These roads are so bad,
Stones on my path,
Mud and dust in the air..,
and you stupid men stand over there and stare..!
What do you get by looking?
Do you realise how uncomfortable it makes me!
No it’s not that I am afraid,
Just ashamed. I have no hope.
This city is going down the drain..
World Hunger Day
Silver foils, empty plates
Hungry kids stop and stare.
Dried lips, messy hair
Are you here to beg?
But why..you should be out there to play
Or is this your new game?
We throw away and waste.
Children out there are waiting to be fed.
A little more care, a little less greed
Can maybe feed the ones in need.
Protect and educate
Love and care
Let’s improve what we can today
Be humble and nice to everyone you meet.
..and another day
With the crack of dawn
I rose..
like the crispness in the air.
I smiled a while and looked ahead
At the hazy clouds in the light blue sky.
I give a thought to what I have become
And close my eyes for a second.
I open them again
Look for rays of hope for my actions.
Take a deep breath, smell the freshness in the air
& go back in to live another day.
Into the dark
I embark into the deep dark woods
Walk, continue walking
Look around and find just darkness
Forests black as the night
Play with the wind and howl all night
Nothing but pebbles on my track
Crispness of the leaves leave behind a crackling noise.
I stop and stare
Wonder what’s ahead
An endless twirling path
I sob and look up at the sky
Dark foggy mist in the air
Chilly piercing winds make me embrace myself
The moon pierces through the smokey clouds
A tight grip on my shoulder
I turn around to find nothing but darkness again.
April 26th
You have endured pain.
Quietly. You did not share.
Your eyes said it all
But you remained strong
Counting days, each day was a new kind of pain
It started eating you up
And you still did not give up.
You smiled at me
Held my hand
We watched, we were helpless
But we cared.
If only we could take all your pain away.
And now you’re gone.
Your cancer is cured today.
If only I could see you one last time.
Rest in peace dear father.
I will always miss you and love you.
PS – April 26th, loving father-in-law
Nuraine Sadaf 