You are a human,
Not a paper on which I can write my emotions.
I do not know how you will perceive what I feel.
You might get me wrong.
And things might get messier.
So I remain silent or show you what’s on my mind?
Worthless, seeking happiness in others.
An emptiness, so shallow.
With no interest absolutely in doing anything meaningful.
All I do is watch the world outside,
the cloudy skies,
an eagle flying high,
people walking by.
Questions of existence and the point of life.
With no distinguishable role to play.
Artistry of others inspires me.
A blanket of darkness clouds my mind.
Thoughts of happier people living their lives.
These moods of mine take control of my mind
They consume my better side,
I walk around wearing a mask of anger and whine.
A wave of throbbing pain in my brain.
I breathe deep and try to understand what is it that I want..
An ear to listen, someone to appreciate and care
Understand the person I am
And who am I?
Just an ordinary girl
Swamped in emotions in need of love.